Since the very beginning of my life, I've been extremely shy. I didn't speak very much and ended up standing on the edge of the playground watching the other children play, hoping someone might invite me to join in (which is totally contrary to the Divine Expression of my Human Design Life Chart). Over the years, I've felt alone and much like an outsider -- someone who doesn't fit in -- a quiet, funny girl...
I'd make attempts at playing with others, and I even endeavored to make birthday cards for everyone in my Second Grade classroom at school, until I saw that someone I'd very carefully created, colored and cut out a card for had thrown it in the garbage on the way out of class one day. Ouch!
Feelings of aloneness and anger welled up inside, compounded by the frustrating experiences I had at home in my formative years.
I ended up squelching my creativity at the ripe old age of twelve when me and a mechanical typewriter fell in love with each other. It wasn't true love, though, even though I thought it was love at first sight. As a matter of fact, I felt desperate to get my phalanges on the cute little thing -- so desperate, in fact, that I went to the student counselor's office and requested to be placed in the typing class (that wasn't very shy, I know, but I was very determined)! This request was met with, "You're only in Seventh Grade. You need to wait until next year."
While I waited with baited breath for access to the upcoming class, I continued pounding out drills on my piano at home, which I later discovered was a plus for producing Divine Confident Expression via the aforementioned typewriter.
Since then, I've come to realize that that dear, lovely typewriter was merely a perceived route for me to get out on my own and support myself decently in the process, which it dutifully did, but I'm realizing now could not have sustained it over time in the long term due to the way my energy field best works.
Over the years, my energy was pulled more and more away from my creative self expression and my natural, innate talents for sketching, art and music (as I naturally headed into marriage and parenthood). I met and married my wonderful husband, and we have two beautiful children which we home birthed and home schooled. It was a lot of work, and very well worth it, even with all the ups and downs of life (even the sacrifice of setting aside any potential of artistic pursuits)!
Now, as our children are in their early twenties, I find myself being able to immerse myself more fully in connecting with the authentic expression that is who I truly am deep down inside, and to be fully present to supporting other women to do the same for themselves as well by connecting with and fully embodying their innate gifts, love and beauty within. This is one of my greatest delights and intentions!
It's truly lovely to see the successes of those around me and to watch them thrive and grow. Women hold a particular place of love in my heart, especially women who are looking to sincerely allow themselves to step into their Divine Empowerment -- women who are open, ready, willing and able to do the work necessary in order to reach their greatest joy by getting down to the nitty gritty of what it truly means to fully Embody the Love and Beauty that they are.
If this is you, feel free to raise your hand (the Cosmic Realm will most certainly mark you as seen, heard and present ♥)!
As I've sat in long hours of meditation, I've come to the full realization that in order for me to better serve and support you in experiencing that very thing, I can only do that best by stepping fully into that role myself.
As I bring the message of Embodying Be-Lovingness out into the world, I am allowing the "voice of my business, Cosmic Shaman LLC" to continue holding the structural foundation of my business, while at the same time, allowing my own "personal voice" to step forward and connect with you in a more authentic way -- a way that a business just cannot do on its own.
I must admit...I've been holding back!
There's been pieces of my business that I've worked long and hard to bring together, through great persistence and determination and Divine Intervention, in many cases.
The Grand Cosmos is now giving me the "Great Thumbs Up"! lol
My intention when bringing Cosmic Shaman LLC into being several years ago, was to serve my community by supporting others in healing themselves through the healing power of their love.
The focus will still be on the same note or tone, but in a more clear and focused way through a combination of the Human Design System, the Quantum Alignment System, Quantum Touch and quantum principles for self-individuation. I haven't really been making blog posts because I realized I was not fully clear within myself and was confused as to the truest, deepest message I wanted to bring into the world.
(I'm also going to cut myself some slack here, because, being that I'm a 6/3 Profile in the Human Design System, this means that I'm a "late bloomer", so all is definitely in exact Divine Timing! ♥)
As part of taking a massive and much needed restorative pause, I've delved deep into the Human Design System and Karen Curry's Quantum Alignment System and became a Certified Human Design Specialist and Certified Quantum Alignment Practitioner in order to get to know myself better, as my Divine Wish for All (including myself) is to be one's very own BFF (Best Friend Forever).
This is definitely a work in progress! Some days are better than other days, for sure, as there is much to learn and grow with.
With this realization, I am re-branding my business with my name so I can better serve and support you.
I'll be rolling out more information and announcements in the coming weeks, as I mentioned in my previous blog post, "Transformation Is Coming!".
Know that you are greatly appreciated! You are super valuable! You are necessary and required in the world. None of us would be who we are if you were not here with us.
As you gaze at yourSelf in your Magic Mirror
(yes, the one in your bathroom will work very nicely),
Re-member to look yourSelf straight in the eye and say:
"Thank you for Be-ing Here!
Thank you for Be-ing You!
I love you exactly the way you are!"
Looking forward to connecting with you!
If you have any questions, feel free to click the little email symbol in the upper right side of this web page and send me a message. I'd love to hear from you!
Keep an eye out for updates, as I'll be making more blog posts as I go along to let you know how things are coming along.
There's also a Quantum Touch Level 1 Workshop in the works for mid-September, as well. That will show up in the Upcoming Events tab once the complete info is ready. Also, I invite you to request your Free Human Design Life Chart, as well.
Sending You Much Love & Beauty for Your Day!